Thursday, January 31, 2013

The Power of Vulnerability

Survivor Caramoan cast, Day 3 in the game.
(c) CBS, 2012, Monty Brinton.

Last night was the TV Guide Preview for our season of Survivor. And I have to say--even after having lived this experience once before--

holy cow, I forgot how vulnerable you feel watching yourself on TV.  

And I'm not alone in feeling vulnerable.

I talked with 3 or 4 other players last night after the show aired and everyone said pretty much the same thing:

--"I'm excited it's finally here." (We filmed a while ago.)

--"Did you see my X, Y, or Z? It's awful." (For me, it was my posture and sausage thighs. For another, their acne. For another, their smirk in one cut-away.)

Isn't that the way it goes?

Here we are, living out our dream to play Survivor and be part of the Survivor Adventure, and yet we feel super insecure as we watch the experience with friends, family, and 10+ million others.

It's made me think. A lot.

Why is it so uncomfortable to share your highs and lows in public? 

I mean, all of us are human; we know we are flawed and imperfect. (We really do.)

And yet it is still really really difficult to watch your imperfections in HDTV.

Anyway, my point!

I haven't resolved my feelings of discomfort. I don't know how I'll stay strong and watch my/others' mistakes, imperfections this season and still see bigger picture--the beauty.

But I thinthis TedTalk from Brene' Brown may help. It's about "The Power of Vulnerability" and I just love it: 

Have a great day. 

Thanks for sharing this experience with me.


PS: Last night after the TV Guide Preview, our teenagers went to a church activity where they learned to crochet bandages for lepers in 3rd World Countries.

I didn't even know leprosy was still a global issue. Did you? Talk about staying grounded. Here I am worried about my posture, meanwhile people are suffering from leprosy.

Reality check, Dawn.

PS: I have to give a SHOUT OUT to our friend, neighbor, and sistah, Shannon Hale (yes, author) for organizing this activity.
(PS: Shannon's book, Austenland, was made into a movie--which Sony just bought! It will be in theaters this summer!)